Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Energy. Drinks?

I was going to do a post about how energy drinks affect you - what you gain, what you lose.



Now it seems stupid to me. My energy levels are low. Lower than they've been in a long time. Might be the work, might be the dark cloud hanging inside my head. Something must be done and it must be done soon, 'cause I'm on the verge of a breakdown. I already took a day off from work, because I felt I couldnt stay there anymore.



It affects my mood. That's a given. Or maybe my mood affects it. I'm in a really deep depression. Feels like being in a deep slippery hole that you can't climb out of.



Today is somewhat better. Still, it's something that gets more and more difficult to live with. Not just for me, but for my girlfriend too. Sorry G.



Its at the point of screaming. I think that the black mood that is kept at bay is responsible for the energy drop and the constant feeling of tiredness. However, I don't know how to solve it.



I did think of trying daily short meditation. I never been good at concentrating, but It seems like a good way to somehow relax my frayed nerves. I'll look it up.



Monday, May 18, 2009

Arrrrrgh!





As never-ending renovations are taking place in my apartment, I'm going away on vacation to the above location. Right. I wish!





Well, not really. I put this image as it automatically connects with a vacation. My idea of vacation is less UV, much more lush greenery. something more like this:




It's about scenery, water, green views, and clean air. A ruin or two wouldn't hurt either. Not that I mind the amenities of cities, but once in a while its just so good to get away from the pollution, noise, and mayhem. This all makes me miss airports, since airports for me are the real indicator of vacation. Once I'm at the airport, any airport - there's no turning back. I'm on my way!

Oh. I'm not. No money for that as yet, no vacation days.

At least I can dream and wonder.