Now it seems stupid to me. My energy levels are low. Lower than they've been in a long time. Might be the work, might be the dark cloud hanging inside my head. Something must be done and it must be done soon, 'cause I'm on the verge of a breakdown. I already took a day off from work, because I felt I couldnt stay there anymore.
It affects my mood. That's a given. Or maybe my mood affects it. I'm in a really deep depression. Feels like being in a deep slippery hole that you can't climb out of.
Today is somewhat better. Still, it's something that gets more and more difficult to live with. Not just for me, but for my girlfriend too. Sorry G.
Its at the point of screaming. I think that the black mood that is kept at bay is responsible for the energy drop and the constant feeling of tiredness. However, I don't know how to solve it.
I did think of trying daily short meditation. I never been good at concentrating, but It seems like a good way to somehow relax my frayed nerves. I'll look it up.
