Sugar

You don't really know how important it is in your life until you take it out of your menu.

It's a whole range of color that goes missing from your rainbow. It starts with the almost obvious coffee or regular tea in the morning, goes through cakes and cookies, and continues with jams, candies, and chocolate.

It's all unhealthy, bad for your body, and gives you short-term energy that I really miss very much!

But I shall prevail. At least until the ending of the month of this diet.

Such simple joys..

Ka-Boom!

That's how my head feels right now.. well, naturally I exaggerate.

Still, come end of the working day, I want to stick my head in a cold water bucket for a few minutes and than wipe it, and hopefully it'll be good as new.

It feels like my respiration slows down almost deliberately, my eyes go sleepy, and I feel the pressure building behind my forehead.

As if the day squeezed what was left of my life energy and left me with scraps that might sustain me until I get home, or might not.

Anywho, enough bitching. Weekend will come soon and with it a vacation with the family and the girlfriend at a spa resort! Excellent! :)

Stupid Diet

I started this really annoying diet to cleanse my stomach and digestive system.

It all started about 8 years ago when I went on a long backpacking trip to south america in which I broke my regular celiac-related diet.

Since then, I've been having all kinds of stomach problems and nothing really changed.

So.. I went to a TCM/Naturopath expert and he put me on a cow diet. The list of things I cannot eat overwhelmingly surpasses what I can eat.

First and foremost, all flour/flour related products and all sugar and deriatives are out of my diet. So are most fruits.

This begs the question: Is the suffering hard enough to comply with such cruel fate?

At first it's only for a month, after that and according to the outcome, the diet will be relaxed.

Aside from that I caught a frigging cold. I guess when shit comes, it rains!

Rut

Feeling like I'm stuck in a rut. Life do that a lot to the working stiff. And I do feel like a working stiff. or maybe it's the lack of feeling of fulfilment or any real purpose in life. Any of those sucks.

Being in a rut is a bit like swimming against a mild current. You put some (not too much) effort, but you stay exactly where you are. The scenery around you changes only if it's dynamic, and you stay in the same place, doing the same thing.

Sometimes you go somewhere different, do something to break the routine, but it's not enough to make any real change. It's all inside you. It's all inside me.